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Monday, October 16, 2006

lovely babes + the fugly one!
``__saYs cheesE__``

procrastinated. 8:56 AM

lovely babes! =)
``__saYs cheesE__``

procrastinated. 8:56 AM

me.jenny. nice! =)
``__saYs cheesE__``

procrastinated. 8:55 AM

aishiteru, sa rang hae yo =)
``__saYs cheesE__``

procrastinated. 8:53 AM

Thursday, October 05, 2006

i've shifted.
i think this newly-created link is nicer? i think i like the new link more, but i can't bear to abandon this link cos i've been using it for more than years. i'm indecisive. anyway the new link is still empty, the layout is all the same as this. perhaps, i shall slowly switch to that. =)
i dunno to use this or that. getting indecisive over trivial things. what a waste of brain juices.

http://philosophizing-joycie.blogspot.com

procrastinated. 8:23 AM

<< 有你多好 >>

回家路上经过了学校
好像没有当年热闹
学过什么大多都忘了
却还记得你的微笑
关于爱情我们都想得太好
总是在伤害中才学会思考
那次分手你曾让我暂时的依靠
想起来原来你喜欢我比谁都早
我们曾经说好
爱情多不可靠
所以我们不要
变成情人好不好
如果真的遇到爱上了谁都好
记得要第一时间让我知道
记得要第一时间让你知道

想你知道yeah~
如果时间不是往前跑
你在身旁那有多好

procrastinated. 12:28 AM

Tuesday, October 03, 2006

the picture says it all. =)

procrastinated. 9:25 PM

<<不说出的温柔>>

你是否忘记了
那时候的笑容
如果我已不在你心中
舍不得为什么
你说过的以后
留下我能不能圆梦
那天空云很多
看不见你的轮廓
只剩下太多来不及说

(是我你好吗没什么事只是想知道你好不好这是我最后一次打给你了希望你好好照顾自己)

不说出的温柔
让你离开我
我以为你都会懂
等着你
我才发现难过

很难说有没有
想念过你的手
可能是我不愿去触碰
不记得本来你有没有擦口红
反正是我已经错过

那天空云很多
看不见你的轮廓
剩下太多来不及说
想哭的冲动
开始在失去以后
才等着你的手拥抱我的寂寞
该说的时候
早应该大声的说
那种认真的沉默
弄巧成拙
不说出的温柔
让你离开我
我以为你都会懂
想哭的冲动
开始在失去以后
已经擦干了泪
为何还有点痛
该说的时候
早应该大声的说
爱已经留下缺口
剩下沉默
不说出的温柔
让你离开我
去拥抱
你要的梦
别担心我
我会好好过

i love this song sooo muchie. sorry gayathri dearie and ezah darl, it's a chinese song.. really nice.. i fell in love with this song.. omg. =) it makes my day feel good after listening... =)

procrastinated. 8:38 PM

today i was just doing whatever i was doing yesterday, and yes i did worse than yesterday. remember i mentioned i did 100 names? i did only 85 today. i know this is bad. but u all know what? it is really tedious? and it is quite tiring. at times when i really feel like dosing off, i just wander off. to other's blogs, to tagging other's boards, to friendster and my lappy has this very evil program that made me sinful. the picasa. i could see all the pictures from serve cambodia'2005 to touch 2006 to redang... and then i have all the time and pleasure in the world to decorate them, made piles, grids and more. hahhas. sorry, i was just too big a slacker.

allow me to say that i realised i miss gayathri soooooo muchie? meet me? pls? loves. =) thos jc days came flowing into my mind again? like flash backs of a movie. i miss all of u dears. gayathri, jegan, sathiya, sherfeeq & many more... if i had a choice back then, i wouldnt have quit school and left u guys. ='(

was talking to lynn asking her for opinions on which major to choose. she said service management would be much better than any others. which i kind of feel so too. entrepreneur is not my cup of tea. marketing is just gonna be so tiring and taxing and i don need that kind of stress. HR or service? i dunno. time to think hard though.

i went to watch john tucker must die with yingtao today. perhaps i was way too tired, i din really find that the show was utterly good? i dunno. plus my mind was kind of occupied with all other things except to sit and relax the show. for the very first time, we didn't exactly talk very much. it was just plain meeting, eating dinner, to the show and home. it was like a one way communication today, he was doing the talking i was doing the smilings. don't ask me why. probably, the thought of wanting to let go is much stronger than anything else. perhaps, being the besties that we were once were, and always will be is the best. =)

just like what me and ezah darling had concluded, we might just be left on the shelves and *touch wood* if by the age of 35 and we are still single n available, then we would share an apartment and live happily ever after. backpacking and travelling, ding things that only singles get to enjoy.. hahahhas! but of course, we also agreed to be god mums for ours kids. hahahs! on hindsight, it's not a very far fetch topic to talk about. we are freaking turning 20 or 21 soon, and time will just start to fly from there.
darlings, no matter what we do, just know that WE stand by each other. always always know that we are here for one another. to my darlings, sometimes, things just don't go the way we want to, but trust in this: everything takes time, and everything may just be a blessing in disguise! loves!! =)

zZz. good nite.

procrastinated. 7:47 AM

my piggie sister! she requests for her to be in my bloggie... hey u over there!! there u go!! nice hor?? big enough mah?? not enough i still have alot alot... blehh! loves! =)

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Monday, October 02, 2006

monday is down. finally. this is the sixth week. mind if i say that i still owe my liaison officer my second log. well, it's not that i don wanna hand up. it's just that i got no idea what i should write in the log. the thrid week and fourth week were things that i've been doing in week 1 & 2. so, what is there to write?? well, keep oweing until she pesters me for it? okies, today lynn gave me like a whole stack of name cards to key in. i must say that keying data from name cards is like 101 times harder than from the web? cos, from the web i can always use the wonderful shortcuts like ctrl + c and then ctrl + v and the amazing alt + tab.
tell me where do i get all these when i key from name cards. well, at the end of the day i only managed about 100 names all in all.

sorry if i may sound a bit naggy here. if u all are a regular at my blog, u all will realised these italics at the end of every post. i'm here to say that day by day i would try to erase that part away. don ask me why. i also got no idea. today, probably i'm too blue? or probably i've already wake up from the dreams? what is the point of just hanging on to something that doesn't belong to me in the first place, and eventually would not belong to me? i've decided to try and be independent. stop holding things back for him, and myself. to think back, when i have a problem i have to call him. when i'm sad i have to call him. when i'm happy i have to call him. how willing is he to hear all these i got no idea. i just know that he's always there without fail, but what's the whole point of these? friendship? i dunno. i don wan to make myself fall too deep and hard for all these, simply because if one ine day he were to tell me he fell for someone else, or he were to come and tell me that he found the right one, i think my world would crash. and this isnt necessary to make me fall apart. i need no complications right now. probably i have to change my mind set now, that he is just a very good fren. someone who is just like my darlings, xia,xian,yan and ezah. someone who is important in life, cannot do without, but becos he is just a fren. and i should just move on, seeking the right one, the one that is possible. =)
if i wanna watch a movie, i can get my darlings, it doesnt have to be him. if i wanna haf some dosage of smiles, my darlings, my frens can gif the equivalent. i'm kind of convinced that i can never get a bf even if sometimes i need one. simply becos i have no time and i know i cannot commit. anyway, a word of advice here, friendship definitely last forever, or at least it lasts longer than what we call, l.o.v.e. =)
- if u're reading this, u know wad i mean. it's getting draggy and it's draining me. u trying so hard, me trying so hard for? nothingness. i'm not doubting how nice u are. i'm just doubting if this is what we call love. let's just stop wasting time and effort and go with the flow. let nature takes its course. what will be, will be.-
--------------------- Case Closed, Next Chapter will come ------------------

for the next exciting chapters of joycie the devil, keep coming. for now, she needs to go to lala land. zZz. nites. =)

procrastinated. 8:28 AM

Sunday, October 01, 2006

went to watch 'stay alive' with xia.xian&yan last nite. i would say it's really a nice show. not exactly horrifying but it was quite gross in a way. the story is about gaming between real life and the game itself, the objective of the game is to be able to keep urself alive throughout the obstacles, if not u'd be killed. game over = u'd die in ur real life. interesting eh? i would say it's not bad. =)

last friday i was really inspired. i don know why i felt so inspired to learn some skills to enrich ourselves. i would say that i think it's better for all of us (me&my darlings) to learn some skills together than to just rot our days away together... so in the end, we all signed up for salsa class. and we are all high to shake our bon-bons. the trial class starts only on the 19th of nov, but i think we would be taking the actual class, which is every weekend. then i promised xia to takr hip hop with her. but she has to check the time schedules that fit both of us. then we are also planning to take our korean conversational class, but we are waiting for yan to get a stable part time job so that we can all go for the calss and not worry for $$$.
yups, and not forgetting our two star canoeing. but we gotta wait for ezah till hari raya puasa ends cos she's fasting now. and xian n yan to take their one star first before we all can take the two stars. bit by bit, we'd enrich ourselves, doing thigs we all enjoy togther and living life to the fullest!! =) i love u gals loads!!

today is sunday yet again. tmr is the sixth week at attachment. i dunno why am i counting the weeks, cos it wouldnt amke a difference anyway. cos i'd be going back towork everyday except on mondays cos my timetable is kinda pack on the day. tuesdays-fridays i'd still be working part time there. as u all can see, i need cash to feed myself, as well as to be able to go for enrichment classes, and also to save up for the holidays that we all are planning ahead for. (kuching? tioman? thailand? taiwan?) why not let's go to east coast to camp for a night darlings? short term goal? hahahas.
*** the tent that we saw at carrefour is soooo cheap!! shall we all fork out less than 10bucks a person to get it? ezah, it's a tent for 6men at the price of less than $40***

xia and yan darlings are on a diet plan. they are eating nutritious and lesser portion food. slimming, that's what i need also. i will try to follow if i can. but well, i'm the kind who live to eat... arhh.. it's just so difficult for me to say no to food!! but well, yes, i needa slim down too. if not, i'd be so sad with low self esteem as everyone in the group is getting slimmer and prettier, wearing all the nice clothes and i'm still so stuck with t-shirt and jeans all the time. do u all agree darls?! xian, we jia you together!! remember the 3months later thingy that we all needa show nizam with?! hees. i love u gals totally. =)

i still haven got chance to meet joyce dearie after sooooo long. mayb next week? i hope this time it works... misses her loads!!

- i miss u. tuesday? loves. =) -

procrastinated. 5:26 AM

Thursday, September 28, 2006

im in my office now. stoning...
i dunno, but today is a friday and i'm not exactly feeling happy about it? i was late for work today, for the first time in five weeks. and i shall not say why i was late. i just get frustrated. once in a blue moon i'm late.
once in a blue moon me & darlings do shopping.
once in a blue moon we get to eat ezah's brownies.
once in a blue moon we do crazy stuffs.

aint we once-in-a-blue-moon-ers???! hahahs!
just to be hilarious...

my daily routine is not a routine today.. yingtao is not online and he's gonna be away for a camp till sunday.. well well, my daily dosage of smiles are away.. hahhas.. but for now i haf my darlings!!!! loves loads! =)

are singapore doctors really qualified?! i'm pissed!

-i think he loves me. but he doesnt haf to think that i love him. cos i really do love him. =) -

procrastinated. 8:20 PM

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

how can my hair be so messy?? arghs! it's love! i love them loads!! =)
``__saYs cheesE__``

procrastinated. 8:54 AM

all i can ask for. (=
``__saYs cheesE__``

procrastinated. 8:53 AM