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Wednesday, March 09, 2005

-= a PostinG i hoPe evRyoNe caN seE...~ =-

Dear Mommy, I am in Heaven now... I so wanted to be your little girl. I don't quite understand what has happened.I was so excited when I began realizing my existance. I was in a dark, yet comfortable place. I saw I had fingers and toes. I was pretty far along in my developing, yet not nea rready to leave my surroundings. I spent most of my time thinking or sleeping. Even from my earliest days,I felt a special bonding between you and me.Sometimes I heard you crying and I cried with you.Sometimes you would yell or scream,then cry. I heard Daddy yelling back. I was sad, and hoped you would be better soon. I wondered why you cried so much.One day you cried almost all of the day. I hurt for you. I couldn't imagine why you were so unhappy.That same day, the most horrible thing happened. A very mean Monster came into that warm, comfortable place I was in. I was so scared, I began screaming, but you never once tried to help me.Maybe you never heard me.The monster got closer and closer as I was screaming and screaming, "Mommy,Mommy, help me please! Mommy, help me." Complete terror is all I felt. I screamed and screamed until I thoughtI couldn't anymore. Then the monster started ripping my arms off. It hurt so bad; the pain i can never explain. It didn't stop. Oh, how I begged it to stop. I screamed in horror as it ripped my leg off. Though I was in such complete pain, I was dying. I knew I would never see your face or hear you say how much you love me.I wanted to make all your tears go away. I had so many plans to make you happy. Now I couldn't, all my dreams were shattered. Though I was in utter pain and horror, I felt the pain of my heartbreaking, above all. I wanted more than anything to be your daughter. No use now, for I was dying a painful death. I could only imagine the terrible things that they had done to you. I wanted to tell you thatI love you before I was gone, but I didn't know the words you could understand. And soon, I no longer had the breath to say them; I was dead. I felt myself rising. I was being carried by a huge angel into a big beautiful place. I was still crying, but the physical pain was gone.The angel took me away to a wonderful place. ThenI was happy. I asked the angel what was the thing was that killed me. He answered, "Abortion. I am sorry, for I know how it feels." I don't know what abortion is, I guess that's the name of the monster.I'm writing to say that I love you and to tell you how much I wanted to be your little girl. I tried very hard to live. I wanted to live. I had the will, but I couldn't; the monster was too powerful.It sucked my arms and legs off and finally got all of me. It was impossible to live. I just wanted you to know I tried to stay with you. I didn't want to die. Also, Mommy, please watch out for that abortion monster. Mommy, I love you and I would hate for you to go through the kind of pain I did. Please be careful.


Love,Your Baby Girl

PRO CHOICE??? DO YOU THINK THESE BABIES CHoOSE TO DIE???

This Is Dedicated To The Memory Of All The Aborted Babies Throughout The World.

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today work morning and night shift.. hmm.. okie lahz.. not very busy in the morning.. but at night extreme busy.. went home a little late.. learnt a little bit more on crowning and making first impressions and moulds.. hmm.. quite happy in this job bahz.. but actually tml night got work but he ask me not to go.. cos got no appointments.. sobz sobz.. well.. it's okie.. friday night work as usual lohz.. got a poor shuai guy.. a walk in patient.. when he came to register, he looked anxious to see the dentist.. but there was another patient inside.. so i ask if he could wait.. he said yes.. after a while he went in.. i assisted the dentist... when he opened his mouth.. i was shocked.. n i felt pain for him.. he had serious gum problems.. resently went to ns, went tekong for 3 weeks, cannot brush teeth regularly.. his gums problem worsen.. when we were doing scaling for him.. he bleed almost all blood.. first time i using the suction tube to suck bllod and not water.. feeling so pain for him.. then when dentist ask me to apply medicine for him, i tried to be gentle.. he gave a pitiful look saying: please be gentle with me... ohHhh... i didn;t know if i should laugh at that pitiful n forlorn look, or should i be sympathetic... well.. i chose the latter.. so ke lian... hmm.. i think it's really pain... oUcH..~~! hmm... well.. tt's all about today..? nothing much after all.. heehee...

xian ahz xian.. time for dental check up.. ho ho ho..~ kekez.. missing my darlingz wor.. didn't get to meet xia n xian or yan today.. well.. working mahz.. xia.. i oso wan gym n swim lehz.. humph.. sat ahz..?? kekez.. darlings..... hitch on saturday..?? on...?? muackiezZz...~
missing ezah... ='(
procrastinated. 6:22 AM

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>dar-links.

Jeerin.
xia darling.
ezah darling.
pauline.
Joyce Dearie.
Sister Qiz.
Sister Samantha.
Persis.
Belle.
Phionna.
CheryL.
QiuYan.
Michi.
Stefanie.
Syaz.
Serve Cambodia [official].
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Samantha.
Erika.
Kathie.
LohWC.
LimWC.
Jenny.
Thong Kiat.
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Dzul.
Kim.
ZhenYao.
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>loves.

jeerin.cuzzies.family.
darlings.
him.
illogical cuckoos.
lesley six.
FHCC.Stonage.
all the kids in FGAC.
Cambodia.
the toes.
GR2.
philosophy.travel.
sea sports.music.
sea.sun.sky.

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