the hidden secrets.

Friday, June 17, 2005

well well.. wat more to say if i'm stuck home with no frenz to go out with on a friday night...? suddenly i'm missing ezah darling man...~! where are you...??? haiz.... am soooOoo bored man.. wat can i do man...? other than blogging, other than chatting on msn...? oh.... i'm whining here... trying to know wat is there ican do...~ and this weekend is a totally no plan one...~ friday night at home... saturday will be no plans oso and sunday no plans as well... this weekend is really shitty man...~! ezah darling... where are you whre are you..? suddenly am missing qiuyan........... gone were the days we go shopping and rtting like nobody's business.. gone were the days we catch movies like crazy women...~ oh.. am i sounding whiny..? oh i am..~!

am feeling so superbly irritated man...~ wat the hell do i want i oso dunno...~ suddenly everthing juz seems so dim and non-chalant in life..~ hahha... all cos of a lonely friday night...~

will u sms me..? i got no idea... but deep down in my heart i do noe u WON'T man... i've been waiting for it whole day okie.. and yes i'm meaning it..~! i came home at 1pm , and i went to sleep cos i really dunno wat i can do...~ while sleeping, i could feel my sub-conscious mind waiting for the hp beside me to ring.. hahaha.. and needless to say, of cos it didn't..~ for a moment u seems nice.. for the next moment u seems so cold... and the next moment i felt u are ignoring me..~ oh man.. i hate this man...~! and i seriously hate this...~!

i know i have no looks... but looks are not wat is within my control... i'm not sure is it because i look stupidly disgusting, stupidly ugly and thats why i dun haf a bf, but hahah... i know i'm working on it already.. look...~ 10kg off should be very good enough..? i don mind having it 15 off if there's a neeed.... i know i'm ugly.. i know i'm obnoxiously fat.. oh man... why am i like this..? it's not having or not having a bf... it's that suddenly i feel that it muz be looks that is most important.. although all along wat i believed is that beauty is the inner that counts.. hahha... well.. i dun even noe if anyone had seen my inner beauty, or... have got any..?

argh.. okie.... am still waiting for the sms... it will never come...~! ='( ezah.... where are you where are you..? am so missing you man...~! :(

my mum juz came home.. and when she saw me... she said: wow..~! miracle...~! u are home at this hour..? muz be going out later rite..? then when i said i'm staying home tonight, she said: this is a miracle...~! hahha.. yes.. it's indeed a miracle.. seems like i haven been home on friday nights for years... hahah...~! well... like it or not.. i am...~!
procrastinated. 6:43 PM

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>dar-links.

Jeerin.
xia darling.
ezah darling.
pauline.
Joyce Dearie.
Sister Qiz.
Sister Samantha.
Persis.
Belle.
Phionna.
CheryL.
QiuYan.
Michi.
Stefanie.
Syaz.
Serve Cambodia [official].
Serve Cambodia [informal].
Gayathri.
Jasmine.
Camen.
Samantha.
Erika.
Kathie.
LohWC.
LimWC.
Jenny.
Thong Kiat.
Jocelyn.
Dzul.
Kim.
ZhenYao.
JiSheng.

>loves.

jeerin.cuzzies.family.
darlings.
him.
illogical cuckoos.
lesley six.
FHCC.Stonage.
all the kids in FGAC.
Cambodia.
the toes.
GR2.
philosophy.travel.
sea sports.music.
sea.sun.sky.

>rants.


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