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Thursday, August 25, 2005

today.. i had a lousy day... i had a bad day.. i woke up feeling so helpless with life.. feeling so down and everything juz came rushing to me..~ i had this urge to cry... i find myself so hard to express everything i feel... i felt down.. down was the only word to express i figured... i dunno why..
i miss xia so much.. i feel like dying... i miss ezah so much i cannot breathe anymore.. i dunno wat's the problem... yups.. i felt something in me so strong i could not breathe...
then i figured out why.. cos we are all not feling good..? i tot i dragged my entire day... although i had prata.. yes.. should i be happy..? yes.. but i'm not... we went pool... shld i be happy...? yes.. but i din felt a single bit of happiness..~ i went mos burger for dinner... am i supposed to feel blessed..? yes.. but i didn't as well...
last night ezah was trying to get over something.. i couldn't help her much... i came home and read xia's blog and got to know she isn't feeling good and that she needed me and ezah by her side.. but i tnk i failed to do so.. oh... wat did i juz do..? after reading her blog.. everything get so overwhelming in me.. the emotions i bottled up the whole day came rushing out.. oh man.. was it telepathy or was it something that i couldn't explain.. my day was really down.. my body went to school.. my soul drifted to i dunno where..~
darling.. i'm sorry... i know u need me... yups.. tmr i shall see you... wherever u wanna go.. i'll be with you.. =) i miss you so much...~
yes.. life juz isn't the way we want it to be...~
tracy dearie.. if u get to see this, pls pardon me for today.. i know.. u know and we know... i know i kinda drifted.. but now u know y.. i'm sorry.. =(
argHh.. i'm sorry to everyone and anyone whom i had not been nice to today.. i was an asshole..~ my apologies.. =(

so much so i wanted to say... words juz can't seem to be enough... =( someone please help me... =(
procrastinated. 7:05 PM

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>dar-links.

Jeerin.
xia darling.
ezah darling.
pauline.
Joyce Dearie.
Sister Qiz.
Sister Samantha.
Persis.
Belle.
Phionna.
CheryL.
QiuYan.
Michi.
Stefanie.
Syaz.
Serve Cambodia [official].
Serve Cambodia [informal].
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Jasmine.
Camen.
Samantha.
Erika.
Kathie.
LohWC.
LimWC.
Jenny.
Thong Kiat.
Jocelyn.
Dzul.
Kim.
ZhenYao.
JiSheng.

>loves.

jeerin.cuzzies.family.
darlings.
him.
illogical cuckoos.
lesley six.
FHCC.Stonage.
all the kids in FGAC.
Cambodia.
the toes.
GR2.
philosophy.travel.
sea sports.music.
sea.sun.sky.

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