the hidden secrets.

Sunday, October 30, 2005

current location is at my new house.. yups.. most of the things shifted here... even the computer... i know this is rather stupid... normally when people shift to a new house they tend to be happier am i rite..? don ask me y.. but i'm feeling really really moody...

mondays to fridays i will still be at bukit batok cos i need to study and the travelling time and the journey is juz too long..! i'm at seng kang by the way... and my grandma is still at bukit batok, while my sister and my mum is at seng kang.. i'm not feeling very good about all these.. juz cos of some family disputes and this has to happen to us... this isn';t fair.. is it fair to me..? is it fair to my sister..? to my mum..? and it's definitely not fair for my grandma...

now that my mum haf to travel from seng kang to clementi to work every morning, is it gonna be ok for her..? mysister, from seng kang to jurong.. hais.. and me..

i haf to wake up earlier now, even for the fact i am in bukit batok.. i need to do the house chores.. i need to go to hte market to help my ah ma get the day's meals.. i haf to buy breakfast for her.. i haf to do my own clothes washing.. ironing my own clothes.. everything and everything... i haf to get home.. and now there's no computer over at bukit batok.. and my lappy doesn't haf internet connection at bukit batok.. CD player is over at seng kang now.. vcd player and everything is over here... i gotta do nothing if i go home... well not nothing.. but all the housechores.. gimme a break...! and i will feel tired travelling between two places... and i will miss my sister and mum..

argh.. watever disputes u all haf i dun care... why muz this happen to us..? the more i yearn for a simple life.. the more i wan a simple life, things haf to be in this way... even when i try to tell myself i love life i love life i'm contented with life.. i'm happy... oh.. rubbish..! rubbish...!

telling the truth.. i hate this.. i hate everything that is happening.. i'm kinda hating life alrite..? i wan my family.. i wan it in one piece... ONE PIECE..? ever seen the most optimistic sunshine girl fall into forlorn and tear into pieces..? well, thats me when i am really hating everything that is happening to me...

i miss daddy... i miss days when we all had fun as A FAMILY. daddy where are you?

my world tore. the world came collapsing onto me. no matter how hard i try to be a happy person i can't. at least not anymore.
talk to my hand.

i'm torn.

this is when i want someone to be really really there for me. will there even be? i've turned pessimistic. i need a hug. =(
procrastinated. 5:00 PM

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>dar-links.

Jeerin.
xia darling.
ezah darling.
pauline.
Joyce Dearie.
Sister Qiz.
Sister Samantha.
Persis.
Belle.
Phionna.
CheryL.
QiuYan.
Michi.
Stefanie.
Syaz.
Serve Cambodia [official].
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Jasmine.
Camen.
Samantha.
Erika.
Kathie.
LohWC.
LimWC.
Jenny.
Thong Kiat.
Jocelyn.
Dzul.
Kim.
ZhenYao.
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>loves.

jeerin.cuzzies.family.
darlings.
him.
illogical cuckoos.
lesley six.
FHCC.Stonage.
all the kids in FGAC.
Cambodia.
the toes.
GR2.
philosophy.travel.
sea sports.music.
sea.sun.sky.

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