the hidden secrets.

Saturday, November 12, 2005

things ain't going well... but i sort of take it well already... oh man, how long can i be sad and worried over these mundane things. red paint all over the door ain't that nice, loansharks yelling and making scenes ain;t that nice... but well, who cares? cos we don owe the money.. go to the previous owner of the house man...!! argh.... grrrr.... get away...~ hais... dunno wat the hell is gonna happen next.. *i really dunno wat to do*

first is the moving and travelling around.. next is grandma off to malaysia leaving me all alone at home... facing walls and nothing else... then is getting to know that the new house is being haunted by loansharks... oh man... all these sux alrite? *i can't be bothered anymore*

days passes, time flies... third week of school is coming and i still hasn't set myself into serious mode. i dunno. but am determined to get better grades than last sem. hais... *sighs*

i'm missing sabrina. yes i am. darling, chill out soon ya? missssing missing ya lots. take care. <3

missing my lesley six.... missing stef, missing chewy, missing michi, missing syaz... missing all of u alot alot...~ meet up soon... with lotsa lotsa loves... i'm thinking of the days in serve cambodia every single moment...

missing serve cambodia peeps alot.. jip jip jip jip jip... thanks for all the concern and help u are giving to me... to jeremy, jason, kaya & jip.. sorry for all the pang seh-ing and stuffs... really.. i'm sorry... will make it up to u all when things get better for me.. loves.. =)

i like my LMS & IAC group mates... one is huipeng whom i already know from BA camp.. and jessica..!! my cousin.. hees.. i'm quite glad i haf them in my IS class... appreciated-.

tutorial class.. i'm feeling bad that it's so obvious 3 is being left out. hope things get better. missing k-boxing with kathie.. chill out soon k?

missing xia... genting should be fun? kenny rogers is waiting for us.. hees... waiting for u.. hahha..
missing ezah... i tnk we should start swimming babe.. hees...
missing qiuyan..
missing joyce...
missing ying tao...
gaya, where are you..?

seems like i'm missing alot of things alot of people eh? yups.. i am.. each and every nite when i look at all the photos we took in cambodia.. i feel tears brimming... i feel that i really really yearn to go back there.. i miss volita.. i miss rachel... i miss esther... i miss noy... my gals.. i really love u all lots.. i miss u all alot alot alot...! the photos.. never fail to make me think and recall back wat we all did there.. from clumsy to stupid to fun to loving each other... from taking care of each other to loving one another so much.. from eating breakfast, eating lunch, eating dinner, to walking kids to school, to painting and scraping walls, from waiting to bathe to washing laundry together.. to chill outs session at the mosquito's nest... from sitting in the van and puke to sitting at the back of the pick up truck, feeling the thrills and excitement of almost being ram by the car with sabrina. the lights out time... the mission guest house.. all the kids. mr sonny and family. the very nice fruit juice without jackfruit. the very nice sandwich which we wouldn't get even in delifrance. the markets even though they were hot and stuffy. the bargaining with the sellers in the market. the bargaining times with kaya, worrying he may get into fights. clubbing at temple club, banteay srey hotel. sharing of room with sabrina. the yellow tap water in the hotel taps. the tut tut. everything. i miss cambodia.

hees.. haf been quite contented nowadays as frens are always always there for me... even in times of adversity. the hugs.. the regards u all sent to me.. are like warmth in winter... thanks yunxian, who's always there these few days for me.. accompanying me.. be there for me.. thanks lixia.. the same.. my very faithful listening ear... my love.. thanks ezah.. for always being able to know i'm unhappy, keeping quiet yet showing the care and love i need the most.. i love you darling. thanks likim, u being there for me is the best thing i can get. thanks lesley six thanks serve cambodia team mates.. u all are nice and always accomodating to me pang seh and kissing out dates. i'll make them up. really. thanks nancy for standing by me all this while, stay strong my darling, life would be fine for u too. we stay strong together.. thanks qin for all the late night chats over the phone, being there to listen to my nonsense and craps. i love u all.. very very much... =)

thanks camen.. u make my day worthwhile in school..

to all tb09 peeps, u all are the reason why i am in school everyday even though i dread school these days.. thanks my dears.. =)

thanks jingxiang. we may not haf known each other for a long time, but u haf always been there for me. almost every single day.. almost every single hour.. ur sms-es.. ur msges ur concern.. all the words and all the encouraging advice u gave, it brightens up my day.. thanks a lot dude.. u never fail to make me smile with ur not-so-powderful-england. thank u.. =)

i'll be fine. i'll stay strong.. for one reason that i find not worthy for me to live, i'll try to find ten other reasons why i should live on. and those reasons are ALL OF YOU. thanks.. muackies.. =)
procrastinated. 10:40 PM

>philosophically me.

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>dar-links.

Jeerin.
xia darling.
ezah darling.
pauline.
Joyce Dearie.
Sister Qiz.
Sister Samantha.
Persis.
Belle.
Phionna.
CheryL.
QiuYan.
Michi.
Stefanie.
Syaz.
Serve Cambodia [official].
Serve Cambodia [informal].
Gayathri.
Jasmine.
Camen.
Samantha.
Erika.
Kathie.
LohWC.
LimWC.
Jenny.
Thong Kiat.
Jocelyn.
Dzul.
Kim.
ZhenYao.
JiSheng.

>loves.

jeerin.cuzzies.family.
darlings.
him.
illogical cuckoos.
lesley six.
FHCC.Stonage.
all the kids in FGAC.
Cambodia.
the toes.
GR2.
philosophy.travel.
sea sports.music.
sea.sun.sky.

>rants.


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