the hidden secrets.

Monday, May 15, 2006

today's gathering made me realised the feeling of back to square one. my darlings remain as my darlings. after knowing so many people, getting a bigger social circle, knowing more lovely people, everything is back to square one eventually. and i'm feeling blissed...
lixia.faezah.qiuyan.zixian. iloveyou!
there were months when we were busy and didn't contact as much, but eventually, we came together yet again, loving each other, standing by each other as usual. =)
then i realised, we haven drifted, we lived in our hearts. =)
backtosquareoneeventually. =)
celebrated ezah's and xia's birthday today at swensens bpp. yups. bpp. i've overcome the barrier of going back to the place... and back to the place, it brings back lots of memories, lots of loves. and again, i felt so backtosquareone where i realise people whom i really love is still the ones i love and most of them come from swensens. yet again, knowing so many people, bigger social circle, but people whom used to be there, hom i tot has drifted, but actually still there. yet another back to square one.
yingtao.junxiong.chinlee.chin nan.ang.chin ping. iloveu!!
nancy and qin are my dears whom went thru thick and thin with me all the thru hard times in jc. i love u girls.

i dunno how to describe the feeling. it's just so back to square one. like walking in the big forest one big round, but eventually coming back to the starting point and understand that we need to treasure so many things that we had with us right at the starting point. =)

ezah.xia.xian.yan. 8years and counting... u all are people i cannot do without in life.

nancy.qin.ying tao.jun xiong.chin lee. chin nan. 3years+ and counting...

so many things i face at home that is tiring me out. even though i really enjoyed the gathering today. but the moment i got home i feel so arghs! she's making a big din all over again. why? cos we haven been talking since we fell out. and all cos i was rushing out of home for lesson this morning, i left my closet door open and left my clothes on the bed, she wrote me note.

it goes: now, i am very sick of telling u wat to do and wat not to do. this is MY house. you better keep it tidy and follow wat i say. next time your own house u can do anything u like i don't care. u can overturn your own house that is none of my business. so please understand!

seriously speaking, thank you for letting me noe this is YOUR house. and suddenly i blong to no where. haha. how nice right? and suddenly i woke up, realising that i'm actually just a homeless kid. thanks for your reminder though. i was too childish i thought that we were a family of three living happily together after all the storms in life. HAHAHA!! and the key word there is: THOUGHT!! nah. actually. i know i don't have a family anymore. it's ok. i'm happy as i am. cos i cannot care more about wat u do and wat u say anymore. i'm contented with everything i haf. and u know wat? actually, i dun mind moving out of YOUR house. i'm getting sick of coming back to YOUR house late just to avoid seeing you. i'm getting sick of not getting to see ah mei cos i wan to avoid you! i'm getting sick of staying out late doing nothing outside, aimlessly walking like some aimless soul. and frankly, perhaps renting a room by myself would make myself feel better~ at very least, that's gonna be my OWN room. and u think i have to live off you?
lady, i'm a 20 year OLD girl. surely i need not live off you anymore. and lady, i'm pretty sure i have somewhere to go to. u can terminate my poly course fee i dun think i can't survive without u. anyway, that new ralph lauren polo tee u left on the dressing table is obviously for him. oh, just a comment, it's nice! he will love it so much. =)

for so many reasons i am a happy girl. yet again.
procrastinated. 11:15 AM

>philosophically me.

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>dar-links.

Jeerin.
xia darling.
ezah darling.
pauline.
Joyce Dearie.
Sister Qiz.
Sister Samantha.
Persis.
Belle.
Phionna.
CheryL.
QiuYan.
Michi.
Stefanie.
Syaz.
Serve Cambodia [official].
Serve Cambodia [informal].
Gayathri.
Jasmine.
Camen.
Samantha.
Erika.
Kathie.
LohWC.
LimWC.
Jenny.
Thong Kiat.
Jocelyn.
Dzul.
Kim.
ZhenYao.
JiSheng.

>loves.

jeerin.cuzzies.family.
darlings.
him.
illogical cuckoos.
lesley six.
FHCC.Stonage.
all the kids in FGAC.
Cambodia.
the toes.
GR2.
philosophy.travel.
sea sports.music.
sea.sun.sky.

>rants.


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