the hidden secrets.

Monday, June 26, 2006

i don understand why i am still so trapped in the past.... is it a phobia?? what kind of phobia is that??! wat the hell? arghs! and i really didn't feel good when i saw them at the concert just now. they were like sitting right in front of me..... and SHE turned, saw me and gave the most unglam expression ever.. oh man!! i haven even got angry with u for snatching HIM away 3years ago! so hard so that i want to lose contact with you, it's just so difficult! like i went to this concert to support ur sister... and ur mum met me to pass me the tix... and ur dad was like smiling so radiantly asking if i had dinner already... i ned to walk away from this past..... u're affecting me alot in life to be frank. actually, i'm quite sure i've gotten over you. it's just that phobia u left in me. perhaps i should try to get rid of this phobia and get a life! non-sensical!!! i don't hate you, but i don't love you anymore too. stop casting me the very guilty look each time our eyes meet.
shuddup joycie!!!

i need to find a part time job.. a permanent part time job.. if not very soon, i will have to live on air..... i need income. everything else except the school fees are listed under my worry list. money please drop from the sky. *like real* anyone has any idea where to get a part time job? a weekend job....

first day of sch was ok... tmr is the SCO interview.... we will have to make it! =) go go ky and sq!! we'll do it! =)

and YOU! another one! stop telling me nonsense, stop being nice to me please? i'm hopeless. i'm so hopeless, so needing u each and everyday. need company, msg you. bored, msg you. need help, msg you. it's you that i need, but it all just seem so impossible. let nature take its course u told me. do u have any idea how it feels like when u always seems too nice to be real? ok. i'm nonsense again. like u always say, if i'm normal i'm not joycie... i'd be joyce A joyce B and not joyce C... how lame! =D let us be good frens always ok? i promise... =)

i'm tired.
i wanna watch recycle.
random.

BECAUSE i need to become pretty so that i don't remain single. BECAUSE i need to get more confidence so that i can get out of my phobia. BECAUSE i'm unwanted. lols.
procrastinated. 9:16 AM

>philosophically me.

joycie
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>dar-links.

Jeerin.
xia darling.
ezah darling.
pauline.
Joyce Dearie.
Sister Qiz.
Sister Samantha.
Persis.
Belle.
Phionna.
CheryL.
QiuYan.
Michi.
Stefanie.
Syaz.
Serve Cambodia [official].
Serve Cambodia [informal].
Gayathri.
Jasmine.
Camen.
Samantha.
Erika.
Kathie.
LohWC.
LimWC.
Jenny.
Thong Kiat.
Jocelyn.
Dzul.
Kim.
ZhenYao.
JiSheng.

>loves.

jeerin.cuzzies.family.
darlings.
him.
illogical cuckoos.
lesley six.
FHCC.Stonage.
all the kids in FGAC.
Cambodia.
the toes.
GR2.
philosophy.travel.
sea sports.music.
sea.sun.sky.

>rants.


>credits.

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>song.

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