he's the one. i don't have the courage to say.
i really like him.
every single bit.
weeks ago, i was in a dilemma where i was stuck between the two.. him and chin nan.
now, i have the definite answer.
there is no more stuckin between.
and i'm declaring chin nan outta this pic totally.
u're out!
u don't have to ask why. becos u're so...
oh-not-very-gentlemen.
like a wild boar!! u turned me off totally over these few days.
i hate ur attitude problem.
and u definitely dun have to show it to me and all everyone else if u're not in a good mood.
ur sarcasm, ur crude-ness.
it definitely did contribute to my decision-making alot.
i don't need someone who needs me to send lunch all the way to his doorstep and get locked out.
i don't need someone who doesnt care how much pain i'm in when i sprained that damn shoulder.
i need no non-constructive comments all the time when we are watching soccer.
i don't need your crude comment on how i'm allergic to capsicum.
i don't need you to emphasize how u're angry when i'm close to him.
anyway, thanks to urself that u're so out of the picture and i'm not gonna feel guilty for being mean to you, and i'm quite sure u're a ill-mannered, brainless freak, a 26 year old that acts like a 13 year old. how sad. pathetic!
this is the one i need:
**he who would drive to anywhere i want for supper. who would promise to bring me to places where he knows i would like to dine in. at least i don't get locked out of the door. would u all want someone to send lunch for u all? or sent to people and get locked out?
**he who is so woried over my infected eye. so worried about that damn sprained-shoulder. he who would massage me and make me feel more relieved over the pain. he who would make sure i go to the doc. would u all want someone who says u're oh-so-clumsy, take laptop also can sprain ur shoulder, or someone who don't care how u caused it, just worried how pain u are?
**he who would support whatever teams i'm interested in. he who would even chipped in to share the bets with me even though he knows the team might not win? just to accompany me and make me feel supported. someone who likes to criticise everything u say about something over a team, or someone who is so supportive of watever u do?
**he who got so panicky when he saw the capsicum in the steamboat and get so worried that my allergy effect would come. he would ask me not to worry, if i vomit all the food out, he's gonna bring me out to buy supper. anything i would want. anywhere i would wan to go. he who look into my eye and asked me u ok? he who bothers to buy me fishball soup, open it up in a bowl and prepare the chilli while i was bathing. or that someone who comment that i am just faking it all? and as long as i don't think i would vomit then i would not? hello uncle, let me get this clear with u, i also wouldnt like vomitting all my stomach and lungs out with the stupid allergy effect of capsicum.
**he who didn't deny i'm his gf when alvin asked AGAIN last night. in front of lee chin nan. it's like if i don't remember wrongly, lee chin nan would always tell the whole world, WE ARE IMPOSSIBLE ITEMS MAN!! TOTALLY IMPOSSIBLE. HOW WOULD I LIKE HER?! and then behind the crowds he reacts otherwise. i'm glad i'm so not into you at all.
he asked me if he should choose IAP or IHP. a part of me wants him to take IAP cos his grades are eligible for that and he would get paid for that. but IHP would mean he's gonna be in sch doing project and i can still meet him in school. i told him IAP, then i changed my mind to say IHP in a joking manner. he knows the reason y i wan him to choose IHP. but i would think IAP would benefit him more. he told me he's gonna get enlisted in jun next year. omg. thats like quite fast. but it's ok. =) i will wait u noe. cos u're simply irresistable my piggie! =)
after yesterday's steamboat, i gotta realise alot of things. over the weeks and months or years, i've been a total fool. be it u're doing this out of jealousy or not, i don't care. i'm not gonna feel guilty for being too mean to you. for so many times i rejected u for not wanting to watch movies with u, going out with u, letting u send me home. each time i reject u, i feel guilty for making u ask umpteen times. last nite, i totally gave up. feeling guilty was for the sake of saving the frenship bond we share. now, erms. frens? yes. normal frens.
at the steamboat yesterday, they mentioned her. seems like she is always in our world. it's her her her her and her... does he still like her?? i can't help but think she is definitely better than me. if not how come he likes her first in the past? and then now she is inseparable in our world. it makes me feel like i'm snatching other's property. it's stopping me and it is the main cause of not having courage to say anything to you. it's her. u say u're traumatised by her name each time people mentions. u have any idea how traumatised i am also? her. her. her. prettier her, better her. sometimes i wonder how much u appreciate me. sometimes i wonder if u noe i really do care.
love's complicated. i'm puzzled. i need enlightenment.
my enlightenment is my darlingsssss.... love u gals loads! =) darlings, each time i need u all by my side, u all never fail to do so. thanks loads! love is the key to our bond. =) you qing wan sui!!!
dedicated to you and only you:
集中所有力量 听你看你 等那个讯息
你欠我的讯息你欠答案的
那个问题Do you love me? Do you love me? Do you love me?
你没问我 我能回应什么
用眼神说 我怕我会听错要不要
继续互相折磨 你看我 我看著你寂寞手已经围好城堡
心也已经备好浪潮 快完成等待完成的拥抱
别说你还没有感觉到 我所给你的微笑 不只微笑
Love you Love you Yes I love you
你听见了吗这是我第一千遍第一万遍心里的回答
那身边的人经过的人我都不牵挂我只去 你想要去的天涯
Love you Love you Yes I love you
你还没听见吗
能不能请你放下 放下那愚蠢挣扎
我害怕爱情就像 盛开的花一错过
眼泪也没有办法
RAP: 像是一场 多么令人
疲倦的游戏只剩下一步 却举棋不定
我早就输了 你却不相信你会赢看你一直苦笑叹息
我想帮忙 我好著急爱情 爱情
真伤感情两个人 僵在这里 两颗心 悬在那里
时间 时间 就快没有时间
我们 越来越像朋友而已手已经围好城堡
心也已经备好浪潮 快完成等待完成的拥抱
别说你还没有感觉到 我所给你的微笑 不只微笑
Love you Love you Yes I love you
你听见了吗
这是我第一千遍第一万遍心里的回答
那身边的人经过的人我都不牵挂我只去 你想要去的天涯
Love you Love you Yes I love you
你还没听见吗
能不能请你放下 放下那愚蠢挣扎
我害怕爱情就像 盛开的花一错过 眼泪也没有办法
Love you Love you
Yes I love youLove you Love you
Yes I love youLove you Love you
Yes I love youLove you Love you
Yes I love youLove you Love you
Yes I love you~~~
