the hidden secrets.

Monday, August 14, 2006

if by calling you a million times and u'd come back, i'd call a trillion times.
if by crying and it could wash away my pains, i'd cry my lungs out.
if by writing ur name a thousand times and u'd be back, i'd write a few million times.
if by thinking of u once a day and u'd sense it, i'd think of u every single second in my life.
i miss u daddy.
pardon me for being missing u every second in my life.

i cried. because i miss u so much.
every fight, every quarrel i haf with her, it reminds me of how u tolerated her.
the more it makes me stay strong, as i promised i would.
the thought of you never fail to make me weep.
i promised i wouldnt cry anymore and i would be a strong girl, before u were gone.
but i only tear when i think of you.
in front of HER, im strong. i'd never weep, even if she dares to whack me one day, i wouldnt drop a single tear.
daddy, know that i love you. truely.

YingTao accompanied me from early morning to the wee hours.
we met in school. i studied he slept.
we went for lunch.
and movie.
and dinner.
and we went anywhere aimlessly cos i din wan to come home so early.
i cried in the bus.
he hugged, he comforted. but he said nothing.
he was sick. very tired. yet he accompanied me throughout.
i wanted him to go home first.
he held my hand and we boarded a bus that brought us to bukit timah.
we went to orchard from sch. and back from orchard to bukit timah.
we went to courts. we went to plaza.
aimlessly. quietly he just stayed by me.
he didn't ask much. but i know he knew.
he just could read my mind that i didn't wan to go home yet.
i'm thankful. i'm grateful. i love you.

the kind of feeling where u know u like each other. but there isn't any clarifications. but we stayed there for each other in times of need. in times of pain. the way he tries to oblige to whatever needs i have. thank you very much. may i say i really am falling deep for you? may i say i'm totally into you? even if u might never say the magic question, nor the magic words, even if u are gonna insist we are very very good frens, i'm just thankful i have you.

and my darlings, who never fail to stay by me. and my cuzzies. those who stay by me always. thank you. and most of all JEERIN who is going through everything that i'm going through. we have each other always! the pain will soon be gone. loves. =)
procrastinated. 9:27 AM

>philosophically me.

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>dar-links.

Jeerin.
xia darling.
ezah darling.
pauline.
Joyce Dearie.
Sister Qiz.
Sister Samantha.
Persis.
Belle.
Phionna.
CheryL.
QiuYan.
Michi.
Stefanie.
Syaz.
Serve Cambodia [official].
Serve Cambodia [informal].
Gayathri.
Jasmine.
Camen.
Samantha.
Erika.
Kathie.
LohWC.
LimWC.
Jenny.
Thong Kiat.
Jocelyn.
Dzul.
Kim.
ZhenYao.
JiSheng.

>loves.

jeerin.cuzzies.family.
darlings.
him.
illogical cuckoos.
lesley six.
FHCC.Stonage.
all the kids in FGAC.
Cambodia.
the toes.
GR2.
philosophy.travel.
sea sports.music.
sea.sun.sky.

>rants.


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