the hidden secrets.

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

i'm in a state of confusion i dunno wad is happening...
chin nan msged funny funny things, weird and confusing...
why does it always have to be so confusing?
in any other outings, if there's both of them at the same time i don think i wan to be involved again.
things are getting a little too confusing for me to understand.
when i gave you a chance 3 years ago, you told people it's totally impossible. then i was being labelled as a fool. then i gave up. you chase up. i don understand why. now you're telling me u regret giving me the pair of shoes as birthday present two years ago? becos the old saying goes that if u give the person u like a pair of shoes he or she would 'run away' with other people.
if this saying is true, then sorry, it has came true.
stop pondering why i stopped being nice to you.
stop pondering why i am so close to yingtao.
stop asking why.
because u chose things to happen this way.
guys, if there was a chance, grab it. please do not wait till every glimpse of hope is gone, when she gets tired of everything, she gives up, you feel that u've lost something in life then u start trasuring wad was there for you. WAS.

AND YOU!!
we got angry, we got jealous, we lost control of our temper.
for the first time.
why? for the first time i have to throw my temper at you and feel regretful, remorseful.
we cleared things almost quickly cos we were both feeling too hurt.
you ignored me, i cried.
you apologised because u thought i was ignoring you.
i walked out on you and u felt hurt.
but, WHY?
the question is why do u have to act that way?
xia darling say u were jealous, i agree. and i figured it's the case.
you apologised, we smiled. everything was cleared.
i felt apologetic towards you too. cos i couldn't control my emotions there and then.
u told jeerin u wouldnt bully me and u said u gave ur best to me.
u said u had to put ur pride aside to apologise to me.
u said u could jolly well don't apologise.
but u did anyway.
i cannot figure wad is going on in ur mind.
who am i to you?
thats the critical question i really want to know.
a fren? someone more than a fren? someone u like?
or just like any other girls u have revolving around you?
u corrupted my mind piggie!
i'm so caught by you i wake up thinking of you. sleep with you as my last though of the day.
will this work out? or will it just sizzle off and we would remain as best of friends always? just like everyone think we are best buds?
hahahas. how dramatical.

lake house was nice.
it was the company that count. =)
thanks my piggie majesty. i love you.


xia, xian, yan and ezah darlings are all working already. i'm the only one stuck in poly still trying to struggle through those times with exams and projects.
darlingsssss.... jia you!!! i love u gals LOADS!
i cannot imagine my life without u gals by me.
saturday!! camoe canoe canoe!! loves! =)
i wanna go watch fireworks.. DARLssss!! okie dokie?!
muackies!
procrastinated. 8:03 PM

>philosophically me.

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>dar-links.

Jeerin.
xia darling.
ezah darling.
pauline.
Joyce Dearie.
Sister Qiz.
Sister Samantha.
Persis.
Belle.
Phionna.
CheryL.
QiuYan.
Michi.
Stefanie.
Syaz.
Serve Cambodia [official].
Serve Cambodia [informal].
Gayathri.
Jasmine.
Camen.
Samantha.
Erika.
Kathie.
LohWC.
LimWC.
Jenny.
Thong Kiat.
Jocelyn.
Dzul.
Kim.
ZhenYao.
JiSheng.

>loves.

jeerin.cuzzies.family.
darlings.
him.
illogical cuckoos.
lesley six.
FHCC.Stonage.
all the kids in FGAC.
Cambodia.
the toes.
GR2.
philosophy.travel.
sea sports.music.
sea.sun.sky.

>rants.


>credits.

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