the hidden secrets.

Monday, October 02, 2006

monday is down. finally. this is the sixth week. mind if i say that i still owe my liaison officer my second log. well, it's not that i don wanna hand up. it's just that i got no idea what i should write in the log. the thrid week and fourth week were things that i've been doing in week 1 & 2. so, what is there to write?? well, keep oweing until she pesters me for it? okies, today lynn gave me like a whole stack of name cards to key in. i must say that keying data from name cards is like 101 times harder than from the web? cos, from the web i can always use the wonderful shortcuts like ctrl + c and then ctrl + v and the amazing alt + tab.
tell me where do i get all these when i key from name cards. well, at the end of the day i only managed about 100 names all in all.

sorry if i may sound a bit naggy here. if u all are a regular at my blog, u all will realised these italics at the end of every post. i'm here to say that day by day i would try to erase that part away. don ask me why. i also got no idea. today, probably i'm too blue? or probably i've already wake up from the dreams? what is the point of just hanging on to something that doesn't belong to me in the first place, and eventually would not belong to me? i've decided to try and be independent. stop holding things back for him, and myself. to think back, when i have a problem i have to call him. when i'm sad i have to call him. when i'm happy i have to call him. how willing is he to hear all these i got no idea. i just know that he's always there without fail, but what's the whole point of these? friendship? i dunno. i don wan to make myself fall too deep and hard for all these, simply because if one ine day he were to tell me he fell for someone else, or he were to come and tell me that he found the right one, i think my world would crash. and this isnt necessary to make me fall apart. i need no complications right now. probably i have to change my mind set now, that he is just a very good fren. someone who is just like my darlings, xia,xian,yan and ezah. someone who is important in life, cannot do without, but becos he is just a fren. and i should just move on, seeking the right one, the one that is possible. =)
if i wanna watch a movie, i can get my darlings, it doesnt have to be him. if i wanna haf some dosage of smiles, my darlings, my frens can gif the equivalent. i'm kind of convinced that i can never get a bf even if sometimes i need one. simply becos i have no time and i know i cannot commit. anyway, a word of advice here, friendship definitely last forever, or at least it lasts longer than what we call, l.o.v.e. =)
- if u're reading this, u know wad i mean. it's getting draggy and it's draining me. u trying so hard, me trying so hard for? nothingness. i'm not doubting how nice u are. i'm just doubting if this is what we call love. let's just stop wasting time and effort and go with the flow. let nature takes its course. what will be, will be.-
--------------------- Case Closed, Next Chapter will come ------------------

for the next exciting chapters of joycie the devil, keep coming. for now, she needs to go to lala land. zZz. nites. =)
procrastinated. 8:28 AM

>philosophically me.

joycie
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>dar-links.

Jeerin.
xia darling.
ezah darling.
pauline.
Joyce Dearie.
Sister Qiz.
Sister Samantha.
Persis.
Belle.
Phionna.
CheryL.
QiuYan.
Michi.
Stefanie.
Syaz.
Serve Cambodia [official].
Serve Cambodia [informal].
Gayathri.
Jasmine.
Camen.
Samantha.
Erika.
Kathie.
LohWC.
LimWC.
Jenny.
Thong Kiat.
Jocelyn.
Dzul.
Kim.
ZhenYao.
JiSheng.

>loves.

jeerin.cuzzies.family.
darlings.
him.
illogical cuckoos.
lesley six.
FHCC.Stonage.
all the kids in FGAC.
Cambodia.
the toes.
GR2.
philosophy.travel.
sea sports.music.
sea.sun.sky.

>rants.


>credits.

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>song.

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